Wednesday 11-March-2009

Now i'm sitting right by the window jus staring at the gloomy sky with the thundering sound signaling that it's gonna rain anytime soon. I really hope that it's going to rain soon so that i can have a clearer mind on what's been going on these few days. What been really going on?? I can't even explain it for myself. It might be the stress of all the projects ans assignments. All i know is lately i've been having a lot of disagreements with the people around me. Family, friends u name it.. Sitting here, i'm supposed to be getting on the report that needs to be handed up in a few days but staring at the sky gave me the sudden urge to jus write out all the feelings that i have in my heart at this moment. Truth be told, i've been fighting with one of my roommates these few days. Honestly, i'm not going to lie about it but it's been awhile since he gave me the impression to start having second thoughts of him being my friend. Not that i dun like him being my friend, but, all the actions and decisions that he's made really opened up my mind and really slapped me back into reality and making me thinking straight. Although i know that we're supposed to forgive and forget, but, sometimes it's easier to said than done. When a gap exists in a relationship, there's really nothing u can do to patch it up that easy and it really takes time. Sometimes even longer. Sometimes u might even think that how come some1 like this will make u feel this way and makes u do all the things that u've done. Sitting here and having a blank mind now, i really dun know what to do.. Sometimes life is hard and it's really hard when u know that u're all alone in this journey that u're taking. But sometimes, when life is that hard u might actually like to have some time alone to urself without any1 to interfere. Life is also damn hard when u're down and u get all kinds of caring that u dun know which one is sincere and which is not. For those of u who were there for me, i feel u. All i can say now is, feeling is jus a real confusing thing. It has to make u feel all twisted inside and let u mend ur own hurt on ur own.. Unfortunately, it is also one of the necessity that u need to move on with your life..