Heading to Sarawak

Well actually the big day's tmr but since i wont be taking my laptop along wit me so i figured might as well i write it now then another one after the one-week trip. Today my roommate came over to sban and will be staying over night here. We will be taking the ktm to the nilai station then transit the shuttle bus to LCCT. That's wat my dad told me but i'm not sure whether they have the shuttle bus or not.. So if any1 has any idea pls let me know asap. As weird as it sounds but i'm completely clueless of what's nice to eat over here in sban... The only delicacy that we have is the seremban siew pau and my fren's probably over it since i bought it back to malacca for so many times already. Other than the sban siew pau, the beef noodle is not bad as well. At least that's what i thought cause that's one of my favourite dish in town. Well, besides that we have the pork porridge in Temiang which is not bad as well. I did asked for my dad's opinion and he suggested hakka noodle. Although i like it, but, given the current weather i dun think i'd like to go there-there's no air con, the shop is open air but it's very stuffy inside and one of the reason why my dad suggested it so that my fren will be able to see the owner couple fight wit each other while preparing the dish. Besides these, we do have the fish head noodle but that would be over in Segamat which is quite far frm my house (apparently there's a better one in AST according to my fren.). Anyway, i thought of many place to go but in the end we end up going to jusco to have our lunch in Ichiban together with Shin Yi... Fortunately for me i've jus finished packing and now only left the petty stuff that's yet to be pack. Hopefully this trip will be exciting :)

Lesson Learned

After the last few days incident, i really dun know what to do or should i say i dun know how to face my parents and my 'brother' now. I have to admit that i really did not expect them to treat me this way but heck what do u expect when your mum feels that your elder brother is her golden child right? So, i jus have to accept my own fate and get over it. For those of you who have seen the previous blog before this, well, i've deleted it. It's too selfish of me to be trashing my own family with a blog. From what i've learned today, after the half-an-hour long lecturing from my friend. I have to admit that i've been really soft on everything. Maybe it's time that i learned how to stand up for myself instead of jus relying on every1 else. Although this might take a while but hopefully i'm able to grow out of the shell that i've been hiding in all these years.

Honestly

Sometimes it really makes me wonder did i really did something bad that the god have to punish me with all the bad things that's ever happened in my life.. I don't recall doing anything bad or hurtful to any1 in my life (except maybe those petty stuffs..) and if i really did dun u think that i've suffered enough for it already? Life as i have seen from today is not hard. It's god damn F***ing hard and let me tell u.. It's most hard when u found out that u cant really trust the people that u've been calling family for 22 years. Yes. 22 god damn years and this is what i get.. So much for being a family huh? Seriously, what the hell did i do that i have to be treated this way? Don't i deserve to have some peace of my own? Haven't i suffered enough for this already? What i actually found out today is that your close friends is sometimes you can actually call family. I don't know about you guys out there but i'm actually real grateful that i'm able to find close friends that will always be there for me when i'm in trouble or when i'm feeling down (although they sometimes makes me feel like i'm nothing but a dumbshit... but that's ok.. I can get past that..). And here i'd like to clarify that forget about those shitty phrase that your family is better than your friends.. From what i saw-some of my family are actually worst than my friends.. So i hope whoever that came up with that phrase can eat their own words and rot in hell. OH yes.. For those of you who've been treating me bad.. YES.. YOU... You can join and rot in hell as well.. May the GOD DAMN YOU. :)

The Ever-So-Long Break

Who would have thought that i would be so darn boring when you're having your semester break huh? Long before the semester break every1 was so excited that they are finally getting their deserved rest at last.. Who knows it turns out that it's more than they thought. At least that's what i'm feeling now.. I have to cramped up inside my room and do a series-marathon (learned from F and N) everyday plus the occasional PS2.. Seriously, can it be any lamer? Anyway, i've been telling myself to work on that resume for my coming LI. Unfortunately for me, it's been two weeks now since my semester break started and i have not started anything yet let alone looking for the appropriate jobs.. Anyway, this reminded me that i did said that i was going to jog during this semester break to lose the excess wieght.. Guess this doesn't work out as well.. SIGH