MizUnderstood.

Ever felt like getting blamed for something that's not your doing? Living in a double-storey house with 5 other housemates, it's hard to avoid misunderstanding. Let's have a scenario here. What if, whenever something gone wrong, you're the first to be blamed for being at one place at the wrong time? How does that make u feel huh?

A night that was intended to be a night out where a new novel is waiting at the bookstore to be bought (finally!) had turned out to be a night of vengeance. Or should i say - a case of misunderstanding. Do you have a friend who claimed that they have EQs higher than others?? Well, i have one. One that just stays across the hall from my room. I was told many times that he have got a high threshold of patience.

Remembering this, it got me wondered. Does kicking things around the house after being disturbed by a courier count as a sign of high patience? Does shouting for no reason when the internet line is lag an act of patience? The latest - does lashing at someone cause the intended person that you called did not answer your phone cause it was in mute mode consider you as a person of ample patience? I dun think so.

The real patience is for being to withstand a person singing around the house all the time when they think that it's annoying. Wait. We're not supposed to do that too. Why? Cause someone is a very sensitive person too. Does it not count as patience when some1 in the room have to stand up for the singing during shower time be it in the middle of the night? I think the neighbors have more patience than we give them credit to.

The funny thing is, whenever somebody did something wrong, they wont admit that they did. Instead, they feel that they are right all the time. I shud know cause i'm good at this. I used to be those that always think that i'm right when i know it's not. But then, it seems the wheel has turned this time around. I'm always blamed for whatever that's not my fault and it seems to be taking a habit. What's worse, most of the people thought that a simple sorry will do it. Maybe they shud try how it felt when the scenario actually strikes them.

p/s: People, pls use your brain to think before you speak instead of using your ass. If you are as clever as you claimed to be, then, you shud understand this. A simple sorry will never do it. Once the harm's done, it's done.

Do's and Don't

Do's and don't has most probably been copy righted by many people but a thought suddenly strike me - should we let other people decide what we wan or dun wan to do? Up until now, i felt that I've been living my whole life based on what people expect of me and what i should and shouldn't do. As always, there are always example to situation like this. Just yesterday, I attended Production Planning and Control class and since most of the undergraduates in the country do not practice the habit of reading the materials before the class, so, it's all a case of blurry state when we were given a question to try for the first time. Well, since this class is all about calculations and I'm not that good in maths so i was scratching my head trying to solve it. But then, in the midst of discussing it with my classmates, 4 out of 42 nailed the question and 2 out of the 4 almost had the right answer while the remaining two were fighting for the top spot. Unfortunately for me, i did not hear the part where there'll be free 'Teh Tarik' for those who could solve the quest. So, it strikes me as un-challenging. (I would've settled for a Coffee Bean / Starbucks though. But who am i kidding right?) Two of the students were both my housemates and for no reason, they can be defined as the type who likes to outshine the others (in this world who doesn't?). So, what happened was when the time comes for the lecturer to see who has managed to do the question - one of the them gave their answers for inspection. To his dismay, he almost got it right but there was some technical error and so NO his answer is not the right one. Since he's the only one in the class that stood up with answers, so, of course with the course of nature evry1 would come to you and ask for help. Here, it's not the case. Apparently my friend was annoyed cause since his answer was not the correct one and got more angry when 'the winner' grab his answer sheet away. So much for attention seeker huh? One tip that i've learned since the beginning is to stay low even though you think you are good. It's always a loose-loose situation when you are trying to grab all the attention whenever you can.

Friend-SHIP

As you have seen from the title above, I've some how decided to write the word friendship apart as a two words. How many of you out there and actually tell from the bottom of your heart that the 'friendship' that you have with your peers are actually out of sincerity? Honestly, the world has become a place where people often wear a mask when they are out in the society and it has become hard for everyone to decide if their actions or feelings to you is true or just some act.

A few weeks ago, I happened to chat with primary friends via the messenger and he's confided in me that he's not feeling well. So, out of curiosity i asked: 'What happened?'. He went on to tell me that his best friend (which USED to be mine as well) has been given him the silent card for a few years now. At that moment, I take it that he's joking cause how can you stand staying with a person when they have refused to talk to you for three years? What's worse, the friend even went on to pretend that he wasn't there when he tried to confront him. Hmm. Not bad a friend right?

We had a little chat last night, reminiscing bout the times that we've spent during our primary (as i was helping my cousin sis with her boring virtual class), I took the liberty of asking about the condition between the two of them. Not to my surprise they are indeed no more best-buds. I told him wouldn't it be such a waste for an almost 10 years friendship to end on bad terms? That, was the thought that i had last night.

Today, I dun feel that way at all. What do we really know about friendship? Can you consider someone who has been talking bad about you behind your back as a friend? Or would you consider someone who's always ignored you whenever you bugged him bout something that you know he doesn't like a friend? Or someone who should've understand you better than anyone else (since that's what they claimed all the time. Normally they would say - i know what you wanted to do by the look on your face.) but instead went on to say something that they should've known better would come back to the one that they are dissing on?

Really, all this friendship thing really confuses me. How often do you meet a friend that is really sincere to you and treasure you as a friend? Sincere doesn't mean that a friend will cook you dinner every night. Although they have somehow shown you a better side of them of how good they've treated you but wants something in return. Does this make them a sincere friend? A best friend forever? To be honest to my heart and my soul, I hereby declare that i'm not a good friend.

If you thought just because you've shown me some kindness and expects me to treat you the way that you've treated me, then, i'm so sorry cause i was never comfortable that way. This is the reason why i have always tried to distance myself from other people. Oblivion to the world seemed like a good place for me.

Bigger Picture

A sudden thought suddenly occurred to me - does wearing a spectacle with bigger frames makes you see a bigger picture while a smaller one don't? Most of you might not be able to grasp what i'm trying to say here, well, i don't actually knows what i'm going at as well. But, just when i put on my old glasses i had this sudden thought that maybe a person's personality is like when you're changing your glasses.

As we can see around us, there are different types of glasses to be found on the streets and they all come in different shapes. We have oval, round, square, rectangle and we even some glasses which we normally will be those olden days english women wear on TV and let's not forget a peacock feathered glasses. See? There are so many glasses to choose from and i'm just started with the shapes alone. Let's not forget the sizes that it comes with - small, medium, large you name it and it shall be yours.

In fact, the world has been so keen on making the world a better place for every living being they have decided to include more sustainable materials in making glasses which of course costs more than the normal plastic ones (what do you expect? Sustainability don't come in cheap packages you know.) Now, we have titanium glasses which used to be the IT glasses. I'm not sure if it still is cause i have one and it's a courtesy from my uni friends in conjunction with my birthday. Since someone like me can own a titanium, i'm guessing it must be really dropping off the charts then.

This blog is actually not meant to be about glasses, i just liked to say that sometimes no matter what glasses you're wearing, it doesn't mean that you have to look at everything within the frames of your glasses. Maybe it's time to look outside the box (as they say - to be creative you need to think outside the box) just so you can have a look at the bigger picture.

2011

Finally! The long awaited new year has finally arrived. I'm sure every1 in the world is busy looking for ways to fulfill their resolutions. Strange enough, I dun find myself as having any new year resolutions this year. It occurs to me that i might be I dun have enough time in my mind to come up with a few or maybe it's just me plain lazy to have a few. Anyhow, for those of you who does, make sure you see to fulfilling yours and dun have a few up for naught! Happy new year!