Sense of Awakening

Have you ever had the feeling of awakening before? Awakening as in you were momentarily blinded by your emotions and feelings and had somehow ignored the reality of how thing works. Some people have it the bad way and some have it the rude way. It's just a matter of how you got 'awakened'.

Just this afternoon, i got the news that most couple had their relationship on the brink of the edge cause the other sex complains too much. So far how true is this? For all i know, when one person complain too much it tends to bring out the not-so-good side of oneself towards the other person and it sort of reflects the real you to everybody.

When i had explained on what i thought would be the main problem of the crisis to my cousin sis, then only did she realize that was exactly what she had done and it kinda serves as an awakening to her as she did not realized that what she's been doing, what she thought would be appropriate to do between couples is actually what turns the other sex off. Complaining too much just turns somebody off and it is normally served in fast food services.

I actually thought of writing this blog this afternoon when i was watching my new found kitten playing on its own. Dun know why and dun know how but the title just suddenly pops into my mind and leads me to write this. Sense of Awakening. I actually like the sound of that :)

Free Time

Ever since completing the finals last week, the load that have been sticking around on my shoulders seemed to have parted ways with me. It's a good thing or a bad things? Pros and cons anyone? The good being that relaxation can finally come as naturally as it can be. No more waking up in the wee hours to overload my brain drive and no more rushing for the next subjects.

The bad? When you have got so much free time, laziness seems to get the better of you. Often than not, when a person is too free the tasks at hand almost always will not be done as they had anticipated. A presentation was to be finished and edited last night and am supposed to rehearsed for it now. Instead, blogging and hopping around the net got in the way.

Every year, new resolutions were made where vows to never start anything at last minute and promises to improve from the last seems to dissolve into thin air when the semester actually starts and that's when the reality kicks in. I have come to realize that almost every entry of mine have been on the bad side and there seems to be no more good side of it to write.

Just this morning, while i was still in my bed my friend messaged me saying one of the classmates got it bad with the panels for his presentation and that all his gimmicks and tricks that he's famous for in his presentation seems to have backfired. Now, what an encouraging news before your very own presentation huh? Anywho, hope those that are presenting today will do good and all the best!

Last Minutes

Waking up this morning to think that it might be a better day than yesterday. Guess that i'm all wrong again. It seems that fate hasn't turn out good for me yet. Since the beginning of this month, it's been nothing but bad bad for me. It's like a giant bad-voodoo meteorite has sudden hit on earth and i'm it's target. I guess i'm reading too many novels that help sparks my over-the-top imagination.

Ever got the moment where you have to rush all your assignments and projects at the last minutes and end up succumbing to nothing? Have you ever given a thought that wouldn't it be better if you'd have done it since the beginning instead of waiting till the deadline to do it? I guess it's a habit that most find difficult to break. It comes as no surprise though. When you got too much time till the deadline, you always tell yourself that it's impossible not to finish it in time. One lesson that i have learned this semester - never leave anything behind unless you are confident you can do it.

But what if you didn't want to leave it till the last minute, instead, you've got no choice but to wait till the end cause some idiot along the way came and took everything from you and left you nothing but an open wound? Now, that's a new thought. The most unfortunate thing that can really happen to a person's life is to find that you have actually achieved something only to find you have done nothing cause everything that you have done was taken from you.

And the best part of it is that you didn't even know that it had happened until you actually found out about it. What's more, there's nothing you can do about it cause some1 said that they'll take care of it. But, how far can you trust that person's words? Don't ever tell me that you've seen the worst part of life. Don't ever mention how sad your life is to other people. It'll just cast a shadow on yourself. You haven heard the story of other people's life. It'll make you eat your own words and make you feel so puny that you'll regret the moment you let those words out.

Abyss of The Heart

Everyone have their moments where they fret, feel sad, got their hearts broken, get a reason for celebrations and depressed out of nothing. Just the other day i had a friend who wrote his feelings out on his blog. He went on to publish the link of that post on his social network. Although i still couldn't figure out why he did this but i'm guessing maybe he felt that some one out there should understand what it is that he's feeling.

Unfortunately for him, an act that looked so naive and harmless have turned out into a gossips among friends. Some of those readers have labeled this act as stupidity. The most irony thing in it is that names were mentioned in that post. And that my friend has made what every1 thought as the dumbest thing that any person can do. I guess the first rule when you're trying to go public, names should not be mentioned unless you have the consent by the party which you are referring to?

It always amazes me that some people can just let out how they feel to the world so easily without having a care on what that would give to them. Interactions have come to me as a way to express one's feeling to other people. Unfortunately, in my case, expressing my feelings to others seemed hard. Be it to my family or to my friend. I dun feel obligated to comfort a person when they are not feeling well. A simple act of asking if everything is ok would have taken a lot out of me.

Having said that, it's obviously i dun normally share what i feel easily. Unless i feel that it is necessary for me to explain it to you, then, i would jus twist and turn without telling you a thing. Earlier this month, I was supposed to feel good for once in my life since it's a good reason for me to celebrate. But, for no reason it has turned out as the choices that i regretted most of all. Then, i was accused as not expressing how i felt.

Hopefully every1 knows that showing my feelings is not an easy matter and that unlike most people, showing my feelings easily whenever something happens always makes me sad cause often than not, something bad happens. Writing this blog had those bad memories flooding back to my mind all over again. If only life isnt always this hard on me. Compared to the world, i feel so small..