Days That Left You Speechless

Which day in a week that leaves you speechless the most? Monday? Tuesday? Or is it Sunday? Monday seems the favorite pick by most though as the saying goes - Monday blues. If you answer Monday, check that one out cause i had a Monday blue too. But then it wasn't as bad as i thought. Instead, it's not Monday that left me speechless in particular. It's the everyday each week that's left me speechless.

Ever get the feeling that you feel so out of place and wants to get out from the place that you're at so badly? But at the end of the day you still find yourself stuck in the exact same spot that left you disorientated in the first place. Disorientated is one thing. But what about understanding? Do u feel like everyone understands you? What you want? What you feel?

I think it's safe to say that we're born in a cruel world where nobody cares what you think anymore. The only time that they thought of you is when they need something out of you and try to wiggle something out of you at the same time. If these 24 years haven given me anything, it has taught me that there are always reasons whenever someone helped you or treat you nicely. They don't say it out loud but there's always something in return expected.

Finally i have come to understand why someone would feel so much stress out of nothing. It's not because of the work that's being handled to you. Instead, it's the way that you made yourself to face it. That's the real threat eh?

Nothing When There's Many

Ever find urself doing nothing when in fact u have got loads of work waiting for you to complete on your shoulders? The work was supposed to be done days ago, and you kept telling yourself that you will finish it by today. At the end of the day, u find urself gazing at the home page of Facebook looking at statuses, comments and relationships. The common activities nowadays. God pls help me when you see this..

Reading, A Sport?

It has become a known fact that i am fascinated by novels. Especially the fantasy ones. The fact that you are able to relate yourself to the novels is the fun process of reading the book itself. What prompted me to start reading novels was a book given to me by my aunt during the early years of my secondary. The book was 'The Adventures of Tom Sawyer' by Mark Twain. Somehow the book have got some authentic look to it as she got it from the book fair of her school.

Soon after, the novel reading frenzy began. I find myself lingering in the book store even though i do not have the intention to buy any of them and would spend a great deal of time along the aisle scanning through the summaries of each and every novels i got my hands on.

Way before Narnia series was adapted into a movie, i started reading the whole series. I actually came upon this while in KLCC KinoKuniya. Here, it's where the fantasy adventure began. I know most of my frens would call me a geek or a nerd (some of them already have!) but i tend to have the tendency of reading novels that are related to mythical creatures - DRAGONS.

Something about reading them just fascinates me. Well, not all novels that i read is about them in general but mostly i would look for novels about them that would eventually get my attention. Since then, reading has just became a habit of mine whenever i got nothing to do, before i go to bed and when i'm feeling utterly bored. What a sport!

p/s: For those of you who would like to have something interesting to read, I recommend 'The Wheel of Time' series by Robert Jordan. The book is too damn great for you to put it down once you finished reading the first book. You'll find yourself wanting the following book. Trust me. :)

Atonement

Okay, why do i get the feeling that whenever i write an entry to my blog, it always have to do with something mellow? Melancholy anyone?? Maybe it's time for me to lay back on the dramas. Watching too much drama might affect ones emotion as well. In contrast, anyone never heard of atonement? The keira knightley movie (which in my opinion is a good movie. I just have a knack for those time-pieces which most of my frens would duped as boring.)?

For those of you who don't, well, rest assured. I've went the lengths to search for the meaning just to ease the confusion that you're having now (provided that you really have no idea what atonement means.). So, here goes:-

ATONEMENT

1. Atonement in Judaism is the process of causing a transgression to be forgiven or pardoned.
2. Atonement is a doctrine that describes how human beings can be reconciled to God.
3. In Christian theology the atonement refers to the forgiving or pardoning of sin through the death of Jesus Christ by crucifixion,^[2] which made possible the reconciliation between God and creation.
4. My very own deifnition - atonement is where somebody ask for forgiveness by those that they have sinned so that they are forgiven.

Sources: Wikipedia (God bless this site :))

So, are we on clear waters now? Anyhow, as you all know it's the CNY celebration now and it's really something that i shouldn't write over here since writing/talking on bad things/omens tends to bring bad luck throughout the whole year. But then, the urge to write this entry is stronger than the one that's stopping me.

What's stopping me you ask? Well, before i continue any further, I would like to ask: were you treated by others just because you're less fortunate / do you treat other people differently just because you're better than them? If you're the latter then shame on you. A child might be forgiven if they treat people around them this way since they are still ignorant to the world. But what if you're an adult and you've lived most of your life and you're reaching the big 5-0? Being born with a silver spoon in your mouth does not make the cut as well. In my opinion, everybody has their own right and place in this world regardless of their societal rank.

What do you do when you know that you've been ashamed or should i rephrase the world humiliate in front of other associates of yours intentionally? Would you feel sorry for yourself or would you laugh to yourself silently because unlike others, you will not place yourself lower than those that they've placed themselves? If you're thinking bout the latter, then bravo to you (purposely force yourself to choose the latter does not count you a better person). We might still be able to make a good person out of you.

What got me curious during this CNY celebration is that, while i wasn't born as some royalty nor was i born in some rich families, but, i would still consider myself lucky as i have REAL people close to me which i can consider as FAMILY though not all of them thinks this way. In conjunction with the title for this entry, do you treat the generation after the person that you hate or so you thought you hate cause someone had apparently instilled some ill-fated thoughts into your head?

Who in this world with good conscience would do that except those that already did? Can it be considered a child's fault that they have so 'malfunction'-a-human-being to call father and mother? Sometimes people can be so funny. A grudge you can hold but you don't have to direct that to every1 that's associated with the person that you hate. Isn't it a better place for every1 if you just forget about some things?

p/s: By the way, now that you're in this situation don't you think it's time for some atonement to do? This blog entry is intended to those who kept thinking that they are 0n some higher societal rank cause they got the riches. I'm proud to call myself as the -not-so rich-yet-not-that-poor-who-sees-the-bad-in-the-riches (cause honestly i dun see any good in you other than the calculative eyes of yours. Branded. Really? How many branded things can you have when you're dead?)