X'mas Eve (Minus the Lavish Dinner and Turkey)

Funny enough, even though the final year project is to be completed by next week, but, all i had managed to do was wasting my time on searching for songs, reading my never-ending novels and watching Brothers & Sisters. Tell me, who can resist the urge of not watching that series??? It's just too darn good to give it up.

I remembered when i first arrived to Mlc a few days ago, i told myself to commit a 100% on the FYP but as it turns out i feel uninspired to even start touching it more than ever. The fact that my supervisor has gone out station for a week and the pressure that was loaded on my shoulders with the revelation that i might not be able to finish the thing in time does not help at all. Not forgetting what would the panel say should i be lucky enough to come out with a prototype.

As usual, having nothing to do or should i say 'dun know how to start' i went to get myself a good afternoon nap thanks to the anxiety that's been bugging me these few nights which has left me with not-so-good-night sleep, i found myself waking up now and then to check the time. Sounds like a not-so-good sleeping habits? Why do i get the feeling that i wont be sleeping right every night and feeling nervous all the time before the final semester to my varsity years even starts?

p/s: Merry X'mas (i'll be sulking in my room fretting over what to do with my FYP...)

Anxiety Attack

What started out as a homesick plan turns out to be a real disaster in disguise. Whoever thought that finally getting a chance to really stay at home will turn out to be the worst nightmare that you can ever imagine. The feeling of not getting something done is bad. But the thought of not able to getting something finished in time is haunting and it most certainly makes you feel anxious.

Anxiety attack. One of the obnoxious way to express that you're nervous about something. It's not obnoxious to some people but it does to me. Makes the breathing hard and it makes it hard for you to sleep. Just when you thought you finally got the chance to rest and here comes the whirlwind that's going to sweep your feet right off the ground. Can't say i see that one coming.

I've come to realize that i've been using the phrase 'Didn't/Can't see that one coming' quite a lot. It really seems like a useful phrase to use when you're trying to hide the fact that you weren't prepared for a situation but it's happened to you anyway. Didn't see that coming. I actually likes the sound of it. Happy holidays to those celebrating X'mas. No reason to not celebrate even though you're stuck with work.

Sense of Awakening

Have you ever had the feeling of awakening before? Awakening as in you were momentarily blinded by your emotions and feelings and had somehow ignored the reality of how thing works. Some people have it the bad way and some have it the rude way. It's just a matter of how you got 'awakened'.

Just this afternoon, i got the news that most couple had their relationship on the brink of the edge cause the other sex complains too much. So far how true is this? For all i know, when one person complain too much it tends to bring out the not-so-good side of oneself towards the other person and it sort of reflects the real you to everybody.

When i had explained on what i thought would be the main problem of the crisis to my cousin sis, then only did she realize that was exactly what she had done and it kinda serves as an awakening to her as she did not realized that what she's been doing, what she thought would be appropriate to do between couples is actually what turns the other sex off. Complaining too much just turns somebody off and it is normally served in fast food services.

I actually thought of writing this blog this afternoon when i was watching my new found kitten playing on its own. Dun know why and dun know how but the title just suddenly pops into my mind and leads me to write this. Sense of Awakening. I actually like the sound of that :)

Free Time

Ever since completing the finals last week, the load that have been sticking around on my shoulders seemed to have parted ways with me. It's a good thing or a bad things? Pros and cons anyone? The good being that relaxation can finally come as naturally as it can be. No more waking up in the wee hours to overload my brain drive and no more rushing for the next subjects.

The bad? When you have got so much free time, laziness seems to get the better of you. Often than not, when a person is too free the tasks at hand almost always will not be done as they had anticipated. A presentation was to be finished and edited last night and am supposed to rehearsed for it now. Instead, blogging and hopping around the net got in the way.

Every year, new resolutions were made where vows to never start anything at last minute and promises to improve from the last seems to dissolve into thin air when the semester actually starts and that's when the reality kicks in. I have come to realize that almost every entry of mine have been on the bad side and there seems to be no more good side of it to write.

Just this morning, while i was still in my bed my friend messaged me saying one of the classmates got it bad with the panels for his presentation and that all his gimmicks and tricks that he's famous for in his presentation seems to have backfired. Now, what an encouraging news before your very own presentation huh? Anywho, hope those that are presenting today will do good and all the best!

Last Minutes

Waking up this morning to think that it might be a better day than yesterday. Guess that i'm all wrong again. It seems that fate hasn't turn out good for me yet. Since the beginning of this month, it's been nothing but bad bad for me. It's like a giant bad-voodoo meteorite has sudden hit on earth and i'm it's target. I guess i'm reading too many novels that help sparks my over-the-top imagination.

Ever got the moment where you have to rush all your assignments and projects at the last minutes and end up succumbing to nothing? Have you ever given a thought that wouldn't it be better if you'd have done it since the beginning instead of waiting till the deadline to do it? I guess it's a habit that most find difficult to break. It comes as no surprise though. When you got too much time till the deadline, you always tell yourself that it's impossible not to finish it in time. One lesson that i have learned this semester - never leave anything behind unless you are confident you can do it.

But what if you didn't want to leave it till the last minute, instead, you've got no choice but to wait till the end cause some idiot along the way came and took everything from you and left you nothing but an open wound? Now, that's a new thought. The most unfortunate thing that can really happen to a person's life is to find that you have actually achieved something only to find you have done nothing cause everything that you have done was taken from you.

And the best part of it is that you didn't even know that it had happened until you actually found out about it. What's more, there's nothing you can do about it cause some1 said that they'll take care of it. But, how far can you trust that person's words? Don't ever tell me that you've seen the worst part of life. Don't ever mention how sad your life is to other people. It'll just cast a shadow on yourself. You haven heard the story of other people's life. It'll make you eat your own words and make you feel so puny that you'll regret the moment you let those words out.